Growing Pains - Guitar Magazine - April 1999


silverchair's Daniel Johns wrestles with some very personal demons on the fine new 
Neon Ballroom, proving there's more to rock and roll than power chords and fart jokes.

Growing up in the spotlight can do strange things to your head. By the time they were 
18, Drew Barrymore and Mackenzie Phillips had already dealt with addiction, overdoses, 
and rehab. At 21, Different Stoke's Todd Bridges was accused of assault with a deadly 
weapon and, shortly thereafter, his costar Dana Plato was convicted of robbing a video 
store with a toy gun and selling counterfeit Valium on the street. So it's no surprise 
that former happy-go-lucky Aussie band silverchair, whose 1995 album Frogstomp launched
them to worldwide stardom at the tender ages of 15, are undergoing some pretty turbulent 
growing pains.

No longer does guitarist and songwriter Daniel Johns spend most of his waking hours 
trying to perfect the smelliest fart bomb or throwing classmates' back packs out windows 
and onto moving trucks. These days, he's far more likely to be cooped up in his apartment 
writing confessional poetry or agonizing over the settings on his effect pedals. "This 
past year has been probably the toughest year of my life," he says, sitting on a chair in 
the corner of his bedroom. "I had a lot of panic attacks at one stage, and I had to start 
taking antidepressants because I suffered from depression a lot. I don't really go out much 
anymore. I like to stick to myself because I really don't like being in big crowds. When 
there's big crowds, that's when I tend to lose it sometimes."

Johns' emotional turmoil echoes through silverchair's third record, Neon Ballroom, but not 
in the traditional high-volume, angst-ridden sense. Instead of lashing out with flurries of 
thick, grungy power chords, silverchair has avoided that path altogether, concocting a sonic 
odyssey of grandiose melancholy filled with textural guitar, weeping strings, and skittery 
piano. On songs like "Emotion Sickness," "Ana's Song (Open Fire)" and "Miss you love" the 
tangled melodies and woeful vocals bear a striking comparison to Radiohead, while grungier 
cuts like "Spawn Again" and "Dearest Helpless" build tension with dense, brooding rhythms and
otherwordly guitar noises. "I wanted to do the opposite of what I'd done on the past two 
albums," says Johns. "Some of the songs are still full of heavy guitars, which I love, but on 
the mellower music, I wanted to make guitar pretty much a non-issue. I wanted to emphasize 
the strings and pianos and vocals  more because no one's doing that right now. I wanted us to 
make an album that was different from everything else that's out right now."

To attain such a lofty goal, Johns had to remove himself from the very scene he had entrenched 
himself in since 1994, and seek new avenues of creativity. He stopped listening to music for 
nearly a year, and began writing introspective poetry and watching evocative art films. "There's 
a really good channel in Australia called SBS, which plays a lot of really dark, ethnic films," 
says Johns. "If you're into film art, and you really sit down and turn the lights off and lose 
yourself in a movie, it can be a really special, moving experience. I wanted to have an album 
where you can do the same thing."

On prior silverchair releases, Johns hacked out the power chord backbone of his songs before 
adding lyrics, but for Neon Ballroom he didn't even pick up his guitar until most of the words 
were written. As a result, the music tends to follow the moody tone of Johns prose. "Last year I 
was feeling pretty down, and I was writing a lot of poetry to try to cope with my mood swings," 
he says. "I wrote about 112 poems in six months. All of the songs started out as poems, and I just 
cut them up and made a collage of the words that made sense. I really want people to focus on the 
lyrics and what I'm trying to say in the songs and then focus on the music, rather than the other 
way around."

Throughout Neon Ballroom, Johns addresses such issues as depressive illness (Emotion Sickness), 
animal testing ("Spawn Again"), and upper crust snobbery ("Satin Sheets"). Some tracks are 
far more personal. "Paint Pastel Princess" is about how antidepressant medications reduce 
depression, but leave the patient feeling numb and zombified, and "Miss You Love" and "Black 
Tangled Heart" are about Johns' inability to experience a lasting relationship. "I've had 
girlfriends, but I've never had a relationship that's lasted longer than a month," he admits. 
"I think I've got some kind of phobia. I'm scared of getting too attached to someone. Just 
when someone gets close to my heart, that's when I cut them off. I don't know why I do that. 
It's not like I have any family issues because I had a really good childhood. I didn't really 
have any bad experiences in my life until I was in my teens and I got beaten up in high school."

As any former high school misfit can tell you, the formative growing years tend to have a 
profound effect on the fragile human psyche-especially if those years are spent with one's 
head in the toilet, or the words "kick me" taped to one's back. "Come to think of it, I never 
really suffered from depression until I was 15 or so and I was in school," says Johns. "When 
I was growing up, people where I lived just couldn't understand someone that was in a band and 
didn't play football. I think that had a lot to do with my anxiousness. I was scared to go 
outside because I always thought I was going to get attacked."

Unfortunately, Johns' neuroses didn't begin with his fear of bullies and end with his inability 
to get laid. In between there was a rather bizarre eating disorder, which he expounds upon in 
"Ana's Song (Open Fire)." "When I was about 17, I had this great phobia about different foods I 
couldn't eat because I thought they'd cut my throat. It seems silly when you look back on it, 
but at the time it was scary to eat cereal because I thought it was sharp and it would cut my 
stomach."

Once the lyrics were written, Johns began matching the sentiment of his verse with the flow of the 
rhythms. To achieve an atmospheric feel, he abandoned the Gibson SG's and Paul Reed Smith guitars 
he had used on silverchair's 1995 platinum album, Frogstomp, and it's 1997 follow-up, Freak Show, 
and plugged in some older, more classic axes. "I tracked down these odd Gretsches and some old 
Fenders, and they really appealed to me because I was used to getting these newer, more metallic 
sounds, and the tones I got from these older guitars was much more honest. With amps, I was using a 
lot of 60's Fenders. In the studio, I had this wall of vintage Fender amps and combo amps, and it 
just sounded so much warmer than anything I had done in the past."

Of course, that doesn't mean parts of Neon Ballroom don't still rock like a tenement building in an 
earthquake. Fans of silverchair's grunge-saturated back catalog will thrill to "Spawn Again," 
"Dearest Helpless," and "Satin Sheets." And radio audiences across the heartland will probably 
undergo massive bouts of '80s-style head banging when they hear the BIG RAWK sounds of 
"Anthem for the Year 2000," which sounds nothing less than Def Leopard's encore classic 
"Pyromania."

"It's very glam rock and stadium rock without the wank," says Johns. "That song came after I 
had a dream one night that we were playing at some huge stadium, and we had no instruments 
because everything had broken. Thousands of people in the crowd had their hands in the air 
clapping . And I started singing, 'We are the youth. We'll take your fascism away!' over the 
handclaps in order to compensate for the lack of instruments. So I woke up and straight away 
wrote 'Anthem for the Year 2000." I did it from start to finish in like 5 minutes. It was the 
quickest song I've ever written, and the first verse starts with just drums and vocals, just 
like the dream, only without the handclaps."

For the most part, the recording process was straightforward. The band started out at Festival 
Studios in Sydney, Australia, with producer Nick Launay, and finished the record in Mangrove 
Studios in the small town of Gossford, Australia. Along the way, the band added strings and piano 
as it saw fit, and for "Emotion Sickness" silverchair recruited piano virtuoso David Helfgott, 
the eccentric artist whose life the film Shine was based on. The only real hitch came at the end 
of a two week period Johns spend laying down vocals for the tracks. "Everything was done, and 
then we discovered that there was a very strange, high-pitched sound all the way through it 
because I was standing in this doorway when I did the vocals. I had really put everything into the 
vocals, so we had to take a two-week break just so I could regroup and start again. In the weeks 
that followed there was a lot of smashing things that occurred because of the frustration, but it 
was very gratifying when we were finally done. In the end all the struggles were well worth it."

There's no question that Johns and silverchair have matured since their halcyon days of video 
games, crank calls, and fart jokes. But that doesn't mean they don't still enjoy a good laugh 
at other people's expense. "I still love practical jokes," laughs Johns. "We really like to ring 
up local music stores and invent names of guitars and ask if they've got them. They always tell 
us that they don't exist. And then we go and get one custom made, and bring it in and say, 'Yeah, 
they exist. Can you fix it?' They get really confused because they thought they knew what they 
were talking about, and suddenly they have no idea what's going on. I'm going to do  stuff like 
that forever because when you don't have a social life, you just tend to sit around and think of 
ways to fuck things up."